I had a particularly rough day at work on Wednesday. This resulted in me being woken by a migraine around 2am. I ignored it and went back to sleep. At 5am, sweating with waves of nausea I stumbled to the kitchen for some drugs, and tried to pass out whilst wanting to sever my head from my body.
At 9am I found out my colleague had tossed and turned and couldn’t sleep all night also due to the previous work day.
Your body will send you very clear signals when you don’t listen. “Take care of me!” was literally being screamed at us.
So we both stayed home and did our only commitment remotely. Then we looked after ourselves.
It’s 2 days later and I’ve still got a low grade migraine, stiff neck and shoulders. I feel like I’ve been in a car crash. Stiff and sore. I am blown away by how vicious my body can be under stress. And I wonder how vicious I have been to it for ignoring the obvious cry’s for help for so long.
For about 3 weeks (and for the next 4) I am so busy I don’t have time to be sick or take time off. I am also moving house and work is not going well and over the 7 weeks are about 8 work trips. That’s a lot. Too much.
Cancelling affects many people and time and money, so I feel I can’t burden others with my need to rest. And then the cycle continues. I recognize it and have cleared space for a few days (to move house), and it’s not enough.
How fascinating. What else is possible here?
Many people have this problem. And oddly the world will not stop revolving if I did cancel something. I know this.